SPRING BREAK: MARCH 18, 2012

Oh. It's spring break? Already? (I don't even feel like I can relax...) ugh. Because I am NOT ON VACATION. And all I can seem to think about is my chem 120 class and my stinkin research paper. *eye roll* lol I feel like I'm five. I just want to be in the sun, reading a book, and listening to music...

I wonder what the beach feels like right about now.. It's nearly half past four so the sun must be pretty hot. I can still go outside here, I know. But sometimes you just need to get out, get away, you know? I want to get away, I want to flyyyy awa-ee-ayy, yeah yeah yeah!


Home.

Why am I here. All the noise. I need a long bike ride. I think I'll do that as soon as I get off work. I do need alone time. Maybe that's why I'm here.. for some alone time. I need a little more excitement in my life, I might do something crazy tonight :P. Well, I guess we'll find out what that something crazy is later.

 

I feel 

like I Am

in ruins.

Oh my Lord. I don't know what else I can possibly say besides, Oh my Lord. I just need some serious prayer. All of my feelings aside, I just hate failing the people in my life, but additionally, I hate failing myself. I know we all have to endure things for a little while, so I'm waiting on that 'Joy in the Morning' part. ha. At least I can laugh a little.

Breathe

Breathe

Every little thing. Is going to be alright.

Am I Really Alone?

So I know that Valentine's day is  near (and that is not EVEN why I'm writing this post), but I just don't think that I need a significant other in my life right now.

It just feels like lately everyone has been talking about their boy toys, and then they shoulder a look at me – the boyfriendless friend. I don't have a problem with it though! ... Is that a problem?

I was telling my friend Sophia today, about these guys that followed me and my friends to the gym (long story) and that one of them took some particular liking to me. Well now I see him everywhere – which I take as coincidence – and she thinks that it is a message sent from the heavens above, but I think he's just a player... Let's just say she helped speed some things up for us. She just really thinks I need some love in my life. However, I just don't see the grand importance in it right now?

I'M YOUNG! I have the rest of my days to find somebody. And I'll do it when I'm GOOD AND READY! 

But it's not just her. All of my friends are trying to hook me up (with their friends/ with friends of friends/ acquaintances/ with randoms!?). Like. . . I'm good guys, I promise. I mean I guess sometimes what it would be like to have someone, but I don't really know what I'm missing out on since I've never had that sort of relationship. I only know what my parents have showed me and what I read of books. Though I guess the latter doesn't count as a very reliable resource. 

All I can say is: "Everything happens for a reason, and everything happens in time. I simply like to think that God doesn't want me waisting my time with people that aren't going to make me feel like the most special piece of Heaven on Earth, and he's going to send over the right one when the time is right. In his own perfect plan. And I Appreciate that!" So to all of you out there (though I'm sure I'm the only one reading this blog) who are alone and not quite in the time of your life to be a girlfriend to someone else, it's okay! You don't have to. I'm sure they're fun and full of bliss, but if you aren't in one now... then they're not top on your priority list. Which also means that you shouldn't be worrying about it. I'm not. Well not anymore I'm not, I'm happy. And when the time is right I'll be happy with someone else.

So to answer my question: I'm not alone. I have my family and books and happiness to keep me too much company ;)

It's Time for School!

You hear it come from your mother's voice on early school mornings. The sky is not yet yellow, but a white-blue that the fog likes to stick to and make the grass all wet with. You wake up half mad (because you were mid-dream) /nervous (nothing to wear! Is there gonna be a cute boy in that class??) /excited (you're ready to get back to friends and a schedule), but that's only because it's the first day. By the third week, all this has become mundane and you are counting down the DAYS (not even weeks) until you get to summer.
I'm already there. I've only been to three days of classes. What does that say about me? Hmm. I dunno, but I don't want to have to think about all the books that I have to order for all of these classes. The online quizzes and assignments that I forget about because I don't get online to check my University email everyday?

I. CHECK. TUMBLR. &. FACEBOOK! 

But this year I'm going to do better. I'm going to stay on top of things and keep an agenda and remember to check my email. . . as often as I can manage. 

I've only 14 weeks left! Ha! That sounds pretty good doesn't it?

14 weeks til summer. . . And I can do this. . . Ahh, I can feel it. 

I know you feel that. It's the sun. And it's saying hello, just hold on a little longer. But right now, it's time for school. That's why I'm here.